The Best Day of My Life

I started posting about today being the best day of my life after my doctor had me take a blood test for cancer. I wanted to make sure that if today was going to be my last day alive, it would be my best day. So every day and every day forward, rainy and stormy or pleasant and sunshiny days, it will be my best day.

I got a diagnosis of ovarian cancer or the possibility that I will be developing it soon. Not what I wanted to hear, but my reality. And the ironic thing about this, several months prior to getting the ultrasound that set things in motion, I wrote a nonpublished piece called "When You Wake Up I Will Be Gone". I wrote it after I read an article about a fellow runner that was hit by a car while running her normal route. After her death and funeral, her best friend wrote an article about what she thought her friend might have said. So I wrote one of what I wanted my family and friends to know about how felt about my life. Morbid, but true to life now.

Hopefully, we have caught it soon, but if not, I will be in the fight for my life. I have a great support system, my sisters, my daughters, my best friend, my guy, my running buddies, other family members, my real friends and several of my coworker/friends. Like my sister said we may not being claiming it and will pray against it, but it just may be and we cannot be in denial.

Please don't be offend if I don’t answer my phone or return text messages right away. Right now I need to focus on what's important to me and to truly be selfish with my life. I have so much to live for and accomplish. I still have 48 states that I need to run a half marathon in. I have two beautiful daughters, one that is about to get married and the other is about to graduate from college. Then there's the grands, we are having too much fun together. Plus, some guy hasn't been fortunate enough to find favor from God through me.

And those people that have been ignoring my phone calls, emails and text messages, please don't start responding now. It is what it is. I have to focus on the people I mean something too, not the fair weather people. God has really matured me in this area. I mean when you hear cancer you immediately think damn I'm dying, I'm not invincible. Then you snap out of it, and look forward to the meaningful people and things in life. Well, I'm speaking for myself.

One of my coworker/friends told me that I need to open up more and allow people to know when I'm not at my best. Stop being the strong rock and allow the people that love you and care about you to be your rock.

Oh, and I have a warrior in my corner. He might not be there and present physically every day, but when he shows up in town or calls me, I can feel the protection.

Yes, I wake up every morning now with tears in my eyes and ask why, then I read my devotional, Bible verse, thank God and start my day. I go to bed with tears in my eyes and say this is really happening and thank God and go to sleep. Sometimes I cry throughout the day. I may cry through this entire journey or I may not, but right now I am.

This is not the journey I wanted at age 51-1/2, but it is. So me being me will make the best of it, which means for now on, today will be my best day.