When you wake today, I will be gone. My Father sent for me while you were asleep. You will wake up in what you think is a dream but it's reality.
You see God gave me an opportunity to look into heaven and I really, really loved the view. Nothing on earth compares to it. I'm sorry I chose to leave you but I left you with some great memories and some beautiful descendants.
Remember everything about me the most, even the bad, mean and ugly things about me. I loved life to the fullest. I learned that from my big brother.
My descendants are a replica of me. They are a visible me for you to see. Please love them as much as I do. They have been and they are the greatest part of me. They are in so much pain right now so please be gentle, kind and patient with them. To them, they have lost their life line. God's Angels we be surrounding them so please don't be offended if one of them blocks you from them. I requested their presence and protection over them from the moment they were born. Did I ever tell you how much I truly, truly, loved and enjoyed being their mom.
My grandchildren, so glad you were born. Don't feel cheated because I'm gone. We had some great Granny/Grands moments. We have a book about us. Now your mom is really hurting right now so be patient with her. Take the time to have one on one or group late night conversations. We did which caused an unbreakable bond between us. Create memories like we did. I always said I'm not that type of grandmother but deep down I truly was. I didn't want to steal the motherhood enjoy from your mom.
That guy I love who was smart enough to make me his wife, he doesn't know he captured my heart the very first time we met. He has been to me more than just a husband. He is my soul mate which means he is really hurting today. But encourage him after he is done grieving, go out and find himself another woman to enjoy his beautiful heart. She can't replace me (because I'm me) but she can have the rest of the love I was unable to use up. I tried to use up his love but he had way too much to give. Please make sure he keeps those feet together, I worked to hard to keep them soft for me.
My sisters, I truly love you. You have been my first best friends. You gave me life lessons. You got on my nerves sometimes just like I got on yours a lot of the times. Our trips and moments alone together allowed me to truly appreciate the sister I have in you. I wasn't good at saying I Love You, I hope my actions revealed it, at least the positive actions. Thanks for being the best aunts in the world to my daughters.
My sons, you were a gift to me from another mother. Thank you for seeing the value in my daughters and making them you wives. You found favor when you selected them. Right now and months and years to come, they are going to really need your strength to get them through losing me. They will adjust but they won't forget. So if one night or several nights they want to sit and talk, let them, just listen and share with them. We had many mother/daughter conversations into the wee hours of the morning. We talked about everything and some times nothing. So do me a favor and just be there always. Break the divorce curse.
To my closest friends, I don’t need to call you by name because you know who you are. You have been there for me throughout my life. Whenever God allowed our lives to cross, our friendship grew. We may have had some falling outs, but they were brief. Those take it to the grave secrets, well I took mine first. Yes, you're laughing. Oh if people only knew what is being cremated with me.
My running buddies, what can I say about you that we didn't already cover on the pavement? The same things again. Thanks for those life teachable moments. We shared so much with each other during our training, events, mimosas, meals and roadtrips. The most famous, San Antonio November 2013, my first and only spur of the moment marathon. The love you ladies showed me that day was so wonderful. We accomplished so much with each other.
The people who's path I crossed and you spent more time judging me or trying to find something wrong with me, your loss. I may have been a little on the crazy side but not enough to get a check, you should have embraced those moments. But take this as an opportunity to enjoy the next crazy person(s) that may remind you of me.
To the people who's last nerve I got on or I just couldn't bring myself to be nice or kind to you, I'm truly sorry. That's my loss for not trying to do better at getting to know you.
In the end, I embraced my life with so much enjoyment. I have been able to love life, especially my birthdays. I was able to knock some things off my bucket list, which was never ending on earth. I made mistakes which turned into lessons learned, thanks Zaneta. I was able to write my first book, thanks Ge'Von. When I look back over my life, yes that song is playing in my head, my life has been great for me. Thank you for allowing me to share it with you. I hope you will remember in those moments when you do something and know I would enjoy it. So when you stop crying about me leaving to go live with my Father, have a dance party. Matter of fact, you can start playing the dance music now. This the end of me on earth but the beginning of some great look back moments for you. Love you much.
P.S. I miss you.
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