Ending of 2010

Ending of 2010

The end of 2010 is approaching and I’ve taken time to reflect upon my year. Let’s see, I entered the year preparing for my daughter’s high school graduation and my college graduation. Her high school graduation caused me to cry several times out of praise to God for getting us to that point of her life. Receiving my first degree caused me tears because I didn’t complete it before my Dad’s death and before my Mom became too ill to really travel comfortably. But I got it, with my Dad’s last name on it, something he wanted.

Then I had foot surgery to remove a bunion that had been bothering me for years. It was an interesting experience because it reversed the parent/child role for a moment; my daughters became my primary caregivers. My granddaughters even tried to help. Skye always made sure I wasn’t hurting and Payton kept trying to take the boot and crutches away.

NeNe went away to college in Virginia. I know she was scared to attend college so far away, but I was very proud of her for taking the challenge. To make her journey to Virginia fun, at every state line we crossed, we stopped at the welcome centers and took pictures. Our funniest stop was in Georgia. It was dark and all the bugs were making noise, the state marker was placed way off from the parking lot. I had to run through the grass begging God not to let anything crawl on me or grab me. I had the itches for a couple of hours.

Gee has made it through an entire year without having to move back home. She came back temporarily when I had my foot surgery and when my car broke down. I have to step back and allow her to experience life’s ups and downs. It’s not easy watching my child bump her head, but the best lessons are the taught lessons. I really don’t want to see her make some of the same stupid mistakes I made, so I continually pray for her life. I’m more of a hindrance to her and I can accept that. The parents I know want their children to have more than what they had in life, me included.

With my new found emptynest, I started to focus on me. I enrolled in college full-time. I knew it would be a challenge because I have been attending part-time for several years. I forgot to take into account, I work full-time. Duh, Lenora, but I took the challenge anyway. I hit a road block with the sudden death of my big brother. It took a moment to get my focus back, but with determination I did. I didn’t do as well as I wanted, my grades were lower than I planned them to be. One class I’ll have to repeat, such is life and I’m not quitting.

My social life isn’t what I really wanted it to be, but I made that determination. Can’t socialize if you don’t leave the house. So I’m making an effort to get out of the house more often during my four weeks break from school. But first I need to get my sleep on, my body is tired. Plus, I love my home and having it all to myself. I’m going to venture outside of the walls, I promise myself.

I’m excited about entering into 2011; I have set some goals to achieve. They’re not resolutions; they will be some lifestyle changes. Things that have been pointed out to me during my mediation time with the Lord. I’ve gotten to the point where I’m tired of repenting and the spiritual spankings. I learned today, while listening to a message by Bishop Benjamin Gibert, I need to determine the things in my life that are wants or needs for me. God said He will supply all of my needs; my wants are favor I would like from Him.

I’ve decided to do something different on New Year’s Eve; I’m going out to a party. That right there might be a blog post in itself.