When a person holds a grudge against someone, they are doing more harm to self than to the person they are holding the grudge against. Most likely the receiver is either unaware of the grudge or have choose not to allow it to affect their life. I realized some time ago that a couple of people had grudges against me but I didn’t know why. It had to do with something I said or didn’t say or something I did or didn’t do. I just didn’t know and as time passed, I just didn’t care anymore. I refuse to be held hostage to someone’s grudge against me. These people had plenty of opportunities to discuss their grudges against me but have chosen, for whatever reason, not to. Maybe having the grudge against me makes them feel comfortable with their life. One thing I do know, grudges are unhealthy. They are mentally draining, they cause undue stress upon your body, they have the potential to block moments of happiness that could be shared, and they age you.
In 2003, Dr. Tony Evans made a comment in one of his sermons, he said you have more years behind you than you do ahead of you, how do you choose to live them? I choose to live mine in peace. If someone decides for whatever reason they no longer want to be a participant in my life, cool. I can only apologize so much; either you accept it or you don’t. If you think my apology is insincere, please know, it wouldn’t come out of my mouth if it wasn’t sincere. I’ve gotten too old to brown nose.
After I had the medical scare of internal bleed, I really started to value me. I know it may sound selfish but I’m the only me I have. Yes, I birth two clones, but they are not me.
