I Am So In Love...

I am so in love with Lenora (No Middle Name) Hearst. I have known her all of her life. I love the way her hair feels, soft as silk, whether it’s straight or kinky. I love her penetrating eyes that seem to be able see reality. I love her soft full lips, so gentle to the touch. I love the way you can feel the warmth of her heart by the touch of my hands. I love the two Cesarean scares on her stomach, which through them she brought life into the world. I love her legs, long as they may be, for such a short woman. I love her feet, they may seem big for such a petite woman, but those feet have carried her to many places and away from a lot of forbidden territory.

When did I begin falling in love with her, I’m not sure of the time or date. But I remember some moments in her life that caught my attention and caused me to start taking notice. The birth of her first child, she had to make an extremely tough decision within seconds on February 16, 1985. She had to decide on her life or that of her baby, but it had to be now because both of them maybe dying. She chose the life of her child. Even though someone said you can have another baby, she wanted this one. I think she might have remembered God’s promise during her entire pregnancy; He had some plans for this child.

In August 1990, when she realized she was pregnant and at the same time, realized, she would be doing this journey alone. She couldn’t understand why she lost the baby from the man she truly loved, but she knew God gave her this gift of life for a reason. She still appreciates not listening to the naysayers that kept insisting she have an abortion. All these years later, she can laugh at the naysayers because they have yet to realize that her daughter’s name means “Most Gracious Gift from God”.

In August 1997, she left an abusive marriage, the nightmare she calls it. It wasn’t how the nightmare treated her, but when she felt he might be abusing her daughters, it caused her to leave. She chose the safety of her daughters to seek her freedom. Yes, she was talked about for marrying the nightmare so quickly, but only a few took notice that something had to be going on for her to leave. She has it thrown up in face all these years later, but through that nightmare marriage, she gained another connection to God. She learned how much true control over her life He has.

In 2006, God told her He was going to take her through several storms. Those storms taught her many things; developed a strength in her that has caused me to love her so much more. The choices she had to make, the right decisions she made. Imagine how she left during that year, the tax bill on her home caused her mortgage to double, she lost her job, had to give her car back, her first grandchild was about to be born, her home flooded, every utility in her house had been shut off, her bank accounts were either empty or closed, her relationship came to an end, and people she had helped, turned their backs on her. Watching her go through these storms helped me to gain a better understanding of who this woman really is. She never gave up, she hung in there. She cried herself to sleep and got up the next morning with determination to succeed.

In June 2010, her heart became elated, she had accomplished what several people thought would not happen. She graduated with her Associates degree and her younger daughter graduated from high school. She yet again proved the naysayers wrong; both her daughters graduated high school without babies. Why would people want her family to fail still puzzles her, but doesn’t hinder her.

She decided to wait until her daughter left for college to start a serious relationship, but each day she chooses to spend time with me. She doesn’t allow just anyone to come near us. Yeah, she had some romantic interest, but were they really worthy of her love, her mind, her body. Although the news media says women her age will not get married, she chooses to believe what God has said, He knows all.

No Lenora (No Middle Name) Hearst is not perfect, but she’s perfect for me. I love her so much. It tickles me how she has embraced being an emptynester. She’s gone back to school full-time to obtain another degree, for her. She does things like that, she can now. She sacrificed 25 years of her life for her daughters, now it’s her turn. She is truly happy. Like this weekend, she jumped in her car and drove to Omaha to visit her mother and hangout with her friends. She sang to me all the way; no she cannot carry a tune, but the songs came from her heart and that’s what matters. I think she kind of got emotional singing MJB’s I Can See Colors, it described her.

I’m so in love with this woman and if she chooses to open her heart to another man, he would be a fool to let her get away. I’m glad I didn’t sleep on her, I’m glad I took the time to get to know her and appreciate the woman she has become. I love her and I will be letting her know how much I love her each and every second. I won’t waste my time on what others think about her, because they don’t know her, I do. Insight or out of sight, I love me some Lenora (No Middle Name) Hearst, she’s my baby, my girl, my woman.